Alas for Petrouchka

So, I'm leaving for speech practice relatively soon. That should be fun. I've been up since 8. I wanted to sleep in, but I can't do it anymore. *sigh*
I went to be at like... 10 though, so its okay. I couldn't stay up, I was so tired.

I went to Maggie's thing last night... that was fun. Thats the first party I've been to in a long time where no one has been depressed or had an emotional breakdown or anything. I'm not saying anything against those people. I'm guilty of it myself. I've ruined many parties by feeling sorry for myself, and I apologize. It was just fun though, and I liked that.

I'm kinda thirsty. I'm kinda hungry too. I should go eat something... I won't be home for awhile.

Hmm... I'll be around later I suppose. I have a lot to update about.

No one has said what the truth should be,
And no one decided that I'd feel this way,
If you felt as I,
Would you betray yourself?

But you can't deny how I feel,
And you can't decide for me.

No one should fear what they cannot see,
And no ones to blame it's just hypocrisy,
It's written in your eyes,
And how I despise myself.

But you can't deny how I feel,
And you can't decide for me.

And it's your heart,
That's so wrong,
Mistaken,
You'll never know,
Your feathered sacred self.

But you can't deny how I feel,
And you can't decide for me.

And you can't deny how I feel,
And why should you decide for me.