My wrists are black and blue from bumping the edge of the table next to the keyboard like a punching bag. Im sorry just that’s the only way I know how to get this out. consider it closer to preheating the oven for when I drag the pen across my skin and spill the ink.

so many things are running through my mind right now. I couldn't begin to tell you, even if I wanted to. I never thought it would hurt this much.

I feel completely and utterly worthless.

People try to console something they cannot.
Its appreciated, but it doesn't do anything.

This is one of the worst feelings in the entire world.